Things has gone haywire, i have totally given up alr i guess so? Too tired to maintain the relationship that has cracks on it. Haiz, real tired to continue.
Ever since we patched things up.. You hide everything from me. I kept quiet, you take me as a fool? I am lazy to carry on.
Take for instance, Everywhere you go you have to take your phone with you, why? Cause you know what is inside your phone. Even when you check your phone have to walk to a distance.
When we are out, do we look like a couple? I dont think so. Walk, you walk yourself. Hold hand i have to auto? LOL, thats so totally not my style. Not my type of love.
Yesterday was out on a date with you, sat on the esplanade river side with you, thinking through about alot of things. The last time we went there together. Was so loving.
Yesterday when you sang song to me, was really touched. =) Really am touched. How i wish that was the real you. But, after thinking.. Then i realise, that wasnt the real you.
That is just a show for others, how foolish i can be to ask you delete those contact when i know that you wont possibly delete it. Even were to delete it, you would save it in another place then delete.
Now than i know, this love long ago has faded. No more love anymore, only hate in this relationship.
Why must i love a person that no longer treat me and take me in his first pirority? Why i refuse to give up? Its because i thought holding on will make you realise that how much i treasure this relationship.
But, it turns out differently. I dont know what to do now, i am in a mess. I dont know what i can say now! Everything is so messy, i dont know how to clear up this mess.
Friends, i know you all will say, why am i so dumb and everything, i know.
But, this is my own life, if you all treat me as friend, support me. Stand by my side, cause its my decision. I wont regret. People will change, so give time to change.
Else you never will see their good point. His good point you all might not see, but he is good by nature. Only i can see both his good and bad point. But.. Perhaps now, i am really giving up.
Because time has proven i cant change him, I cant be happy like the past anymore.
I have the courage to even fight back my father for him now, but thinking back now.. I find it no point. Cause he doesnt want to change for me, oh well. Its time to give up.
Because i believe if 2 party really love someone, eventually they both will get back together no matter what. Thats what i believe.
Perhaps the fault is not only on him, i have a part to play too. But.. oh well. I got nothing to say now~ Might going to MIA for a time of period until i really know what i really want.