It beats me off just like that, just like a gust of wind that push me down on the floor and i cant get up. =(
Finally i decided to let him go, no matter what. It's time to be truth to myself and him. We don't love each other anymore.
2 years going 10 months, this is how its suppose to end. I still do miss our past, i still do miss the guy that really used to love me, be with me everyday after work.
But, it's all in a past already, no point saying so much. It won't come back, even if it were to come back. Nothing will change, right? =)
So, no more BABYBOY after this post. There only be JACQ, JACQ and still JACQ.
Okay, since this is the last post about BABYBOY.
Then let me say this story for 1 last time. =)


So it was like on this particular normal day, i just ended my school when over to this blk and slack, then saw this few malay girls younger than me by 1 year.
Keep staring at me. so yeah i was young at that time, so like to make trouble, so ask them up to fight.
LOL, then the girl didnt hit back, so i keep beat her. After that, i dont know what happen, my brother said they called people down for backing. =/
So, my brother ask me to lend him phone to call people, he called this BABYBOY of mine. =)
End up problem solved. Brother called him back, say no need come le.
Then he like, i prepare ok le leh. blah blah~
Then the next day i skipped school, stayed at home. & that is the day he miss call me, stupid him, play miss call to save hp bill!
So i called back, he ask if i am derrick, i said no lah, derrick not here lah, jacq here lah!
then he said, oh okay bye. Then i hanged up.After a few mins, he messaged me.. Since you derrick friend, then we make friend luh. Then i replied, oh okay. =)
So he intro himself, i intro myself, exchange email. See each other friendster. To be truth, the first time i see his friendster i very dissappointed.
HAHA, slowly.. we messaged each other, he said the first time he saw my picture in friendster fall for me le.
At that point of time, i said to myself, piece of crap!Then on this special day 030307, i was with my girl suppose to go down to simei interview end up. It's a provision shop, so i dont want! Then.. just happen that BABYBOY slacked at simei de last time.
So message and called him ask if he want to meet me anot, so he replied, he wants to meet me.
In the end, he tricked me, he said he at simei there, in the end make me run up and down. So end up, waited for him at BK.
Finally he reached, his first impression to me is.. Cute, funny. =) So, end up spend our whole day with him and girl.
In the end, he said he wants to go clubbing, very angry la. So, ask him to stay. He really did stay, to tell the truth, that day i was very touched.
Cause he stayed cause of me. =D Then headed to changi village to slacked.
From 030307 onwards, we met up almost everyday, he always fetch me after school. Bring me for lunch, slack with me, carry my bag, do everything just for the sake of me!
But at that point of time i have boyfriend, but my boyfriend was a bastard, dont wanna talk about him. BABYBOY is the one, who make me walk out of the dark without feeling afraid.
At that point of time, he really give me a sense of security, when he is around i know i wont get hurt.But its no longer the same now.
But there is this day, i dont know what happen he suddenly treat me cold, and say wanna jio other girl. =( I very angry and irritated.
So, dont want talk to him. But he still never fail to fetch me after school, i remember one day he came to my school late.
I very dissapointed that he never come, but then, he called one of my brother. He ask if i am still there anot, if i am still there he come.
So my brother said, ya she still here, faster come. around 15 mins, he reach there. He came to talk to me, said he dont wanna jio her already.
Ask me to talk to him, dont treat him so cold. Then he snatch my bag say he wanna carry for me, that how we talked. =D
& on this special day 260407, he ask me to choose between him or my boyfriend. I dont know what to say and do, He forced me to choose. End up, i choose him.
So, he accompanied me up to my house wait for me to change, then went down.
He asked me if i wanted to be his girlfriend. So, ya i agreed.
Thats when i know what's love, what's care. what's is it to feel when 2 become 1.
In case you are asking, yes. I broke up with my ex boyfriend on 260407, and got on with BABYBOY on 260407. Its a very special day for me, really.
Perhaps, he has forgotten everything. But i never forgot, and i never will.
Because, You are special the way you are! After that, we spend everyday together. He is the love of my life, really. =)
But.. because of stupid things i've done. I went into girls home, I never expect BABYBOY to wait for me.But, he really wait for me. Faithfully, never betrayed me. Cried for me, Wrote letters to me, telling me what he did, how he spend our anniversary alone.
Finally, i came out of girls home, went into a hostel. BABYBOY came over hostel to find me. =)I'll never forget the looks on his face, happy, delighted and happiness was all over his face. We hugged and hugged, never felt so loved before really.
But, i dont know since when BABYBOY changed,
He changed so much that i am so scared of losing him. He started to hong and hong, flirt and flirt. Quarrel with me for the slightest mistake i've done.
Slowly, this relationship start to fall apart, i refuse to give up. I gave in all kind of nonsense that he gave. Because i promise this someone who dotes BABYBOY alot that i takecare of him and never abandon him alone.
But now, he is no longer alone, he is happier without me, so i guess i done my job.
I also know that BABYBOY no longer loves me. So, i give up.
How foolish of me to hold up so many things by myself.
I just never expect that BABYBOY can just leave me like that when i am crying.
It really hurt me alot. Last time, whenever i cry.
BABYBOY will always be there to lend me his shoulder. Or patting me ask me not to cry cause he be there. =) But, not now anymore.

Alright, enough. Let's end it here. & before i end here are some photo which me and BABYBOY took together. Starting from the very start to the very last photo we took. =)









Ps: Can you see the smile on his face? But if i were to show you the photos that we took most of the time its always a gloomy face. It really hurts me to see things become like that. =(